The Road Less Travelled

so yeah i woke up this morning and did the easter thing...yay?

went to church, yet again yay?

finally something sweet...played some Halo with my bro...pwned major ass and beat the entire story mode on hard..now to legendary 0_0 damn..

im bored outta my mind lmao

peace

well its that time of year again...where kids rot there teeth out all due to a damn bunny. That gets me thinking. I want my own damn holiday haha. I bet you could all see it now Than Day where the world goes to hell and Im the reason hahaha i don't know why but it sounds like a great day.

there are all these gay days such as earth day, friend day even national pi day..that gay ass 3.14 blah, blah, blah number haha so why not me


oh well would have been nice

you know DMB was right when they said you just have to make the best of whats around. Seems like since i woke up i have been doing that...lets take follow my day so far.

1. I woke up...we are out of milk...what do i do? use hawaiian punch..not the greatest but atleast i ate haha

2. after breakfast i jumped in the shower to find that there was no shampoo or hot water..wtf. So after debating for a few minutes i took a cold cold shower and used axe body wash...couldn't smell better haha

3. proceeded to help my mother and clean the dishes when i drop some food on the floor...fuck the vaccumm call the dog lol

4. can't play baseball without a baseball so just use snowballs...same great sports but just a little wet haha

idk now im sitting here finishin off the hawaiian punch..damn...no more hawaiian punch haha oh well just remember when life hands youlemons..throw'em away and make orange juice cause who wants to fuck with a lemon...jeez hahaha

so yeah its been awhile since ive logged in so i figured i could update. Im single but im a senior so it should be ending that soon. I am attending Houghton University in the fall and i am doing track and field which is going to rock! Just livin life right now to the fullest...

"pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the floor. i did this to myself. assume its just not worth getting back up and i'll blame it on bad luck and shake responsibility"


it seems that everything is going opposite the way i plan it and as the songs goes i just blame it on bad luck and shake the responsibilty and saying i did this to myself. gotta get this life of mine back on course..back to where it should be. week number 2 and i am struggling already its not where i want to be this early in the year. i do find that my friends help alot tho but i am a type of person who says well school takes a backseat in my life but i am trying so hard to change that around. my cousin pat told me once that "you gotta live day by day..not worrying about what other people think and just to be you." thats something i try to live by but sometimes its really hard. i am really doubting what i can do somedays


"This isn't who i am. From confidence to self-doubt in 60 seconds. Storming stages and stereos from here to there, trying to prove that i belong. Trying to win approval from people that i don't know"


..i'm done playing this game with myself

a man walks along the road
wonder what to do with this life
he lost everything dear to him
now all he has is the pain and strife

noone can help him
he closed himself to the world
he is like tightly rolled map
that noone can unfurl

he walks silently
keeps his eyes to the street
everyone just looks and stares
wonder how he can afford the shoes on his feet

he just keeps walking
there is no rhyme or reason to what he does
he just looks at the ground with no purpose
no one knows who he is or was

well..its been 5 years

people are still trying to get over the fact that it happened...even i can't watch the news when its on...people are being complete faggots about it tho because they are like o not again but you motherfuckers don't comprehend what happened on that day do you...sorry i needed to say that...i remember where i was..mrs spinellis science class..the scream..A PLANE HIT THE WTC....i didn't understand...i thought it was a joke..but now along with the rest of the world...ik its true and all those people are gone..can't bring a single life back...i would have to say my heros are the people of flight 93 who knew what was going on and took the fight to the terrorists and crashed the plane to the ground...i thank them everydy for what they did and i think everyone else should too...

somedays i believe we take this life for granted..all the things we get are meaningless in the next part of our lives so all we really need is the air we breathe, water we drink, food we eat, sheleter and clothing...we don't need fancy cars or yachts or houses because thats exactly what this world hates about us..we have these things and they believe everything we do is wrong so they come and blow us up.

well thats the end of my sermon but if you have read this whole thing..take everyword i said to heart because you never know when it could be a family member...friend...or even you that could have had your name read off every year...

rip. victims of 9/11

so everyone its been a long time no update i guess haha...well i am starting 11th grade..which makes me feel old..i mena ya know what i am feeling cause i am not the only one who remembers playing with blocks and stuff in kindergarten but anyways..another season of basketball starts in a couple months...i hope its anoyther successful campaign..but why wouldn't it be we are South Jeff haha..umm...idk whatelse to say but all my friends...you know who you are...you guy are the shit and i wouldn't ask for anybody else to hang with...well i' out


peace

a boy plays in the gym alone

he always dreamt of playing here when he was grown

he could shoot and dribble with the best of them

people wonder where his talent stems

some say its his father but he knows its not

its his passion for what he loves is how he got where he's got

as he became older he started to grow really quick

he became tall but definatly not as skinny as a stick

and he has improved tremendously and now has to deal

bout people tellin him he isn't real

but instead of falling to them and losing his dream

he shows up those people on the court and do they ever steam

now he is in high school and still playing ball

and boy has he gotten really tall

he learned from two of the schools greats

Pond and Smith are names no one hates

he takes those skills and learns day by day

that if he uses these skills in everyway

he can accomplish his dream that he had as a boy

and this is what brings him joy

he stills goes back to that gym where he use to play

remembering the hours he spent there everyday

and he never thought life would become like this

he is in total bliss

just wanna get away
not for long just for a day
i think that as i look to the stars
maybe i'll go to jupiter or even mars
and see what no one else can see
imagine how beautiful it would be
the stars shining like diamonds in the sky
a comet thats tail touches me as it passes me by
and to look at the earth would be a beautiful sight
to think of all the people that would wish with all of there might
to see what i am seeing right now
its almost more than my imagination can allow
so if i could just get away for that day
i would be completely happy in everyway

we walked throught the field hand in hand
then we danced right there to the song by our favorite band
i look up and there are butterfly all around
one of every color they can all be found
then the clouds roll from east to west
but we are in the only spot of sunshine because the angels like us the best
then the clouds break and theres a rainbow
through the whole sky it seems to flow
that only seems to happen when you are with me
and with you is where i wan tot be for eternity

rain drops falling one by one
i look into the eyes of someone whos life is almost done
he says don't cry i've had a great life
i have an awesome family and a not alot of strife
so don't shed a tear for me my son
your life has just begun
you have many experiences coming you way
you'll understand what i am saying someday
someone once told me live life and be all you can be
i hope as you live your life you will see
how wonderful this world could be
is everyone was just stress free
so as i lay here on this bed of mine
just remember what i said and everything will be fine
and he smiled and winked and then he took his last breath of air
i started to cry because life wasn't fair
and i heard those words he said to me
and i still remember thme to this day and i will be the best that i can be

snow on the ground
not a piece of green grass to be found
i am wishing to be in a warmer place
so where that i might be able to race
barefoot on the sand with out a care
outside in t-shirt and shorts into the night i stare
maybe i'll live by the ocean and own a boat
i could sit on a breezy day and watch it float
but then i snap back to reality and realize i'm still here
this place is friggin queer
so i hope oneday i can go back there
live my life without a care
and then i would be the happiest man around
when there is no snow to be found

"I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now"

well thats bout how i have felt as of late, life has been a whirlwind, things constantly changing and my life is crazy! i need to take sometime off and reorganize my life but i never seem to have time thats why i am glad i have friends to talk to like Cassie, Corey and everyone else. Basketball season went well i had 127 points 3rd on team122 rebounds 1st on team63 fouls 1st on team <--lol6 assists7 blocks 3rd on team (tied) and 5 steals pretty good huh lol. i am soo sick of winter its driving me crazy...there is nothing to do in Northern New York i can't wait till you come back home PatMac and Hutch you need to stop by sometime when Pat is home. schools goin well i have almost made the honor roll twice the best i have ever done...i have been to 2 Syracuse games in the past 2 months check the pics on my myspace http://www.myspace.com/mycrazyplace yet again i am looking for a girlfriend because well things between Steph and i didn't seem to work out at all idk y but they didn't so hey shit happens right lol well i am outta here leave them good


Than

"It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go"

ok so its almost christmas....i haven't talked to my baby allll day....i have listened to "Weekend On The Rocks" all day and well idk why but i don't seen in the christmas mood this year i mean it just seems to get old.....pat is home for the holidays and hutch is here which is awesome!!! tommorow is the big day which means presents for mme....this coming week i have a basketball tourniment down in Illion which is going to be a pain in the ass because we don't get to stay down there UGGHH!!! lol so far this year we are 4-1 and i have totaled up 30 points and 53 rebounds so its gonna be a good year i just have a feeling!!

what would you do if I?
1. I made a move on u:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I asked you on a date:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?
9. I asked u to have sex?
10. i asked u out?

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Body:

::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Go on a date with me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try and solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20. Date me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::
21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to kill me?
24. Broke my heart?
25. Kept something important from me?
26. Wanted to do me?

::AND MORE::
27. Who are you?
28. Are we friends?
29. When and how did we meet?
30. Describe me in one word:
31. What was your first impression?
32. Do you still think that way about me now?
33. What reminds you of me?
34. If you could give me anything what would it be?
35. How well do you know me?
36. When's the last time you saw me?
37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

::WOULD YOU::
39. Kiss me?
40. Makeout with me?

hey guys what a crazy week its been 1st i made the basketball team and that was awesome even though i expected it..then i find out i am actually doing WELL in school i was like holy fuck i can do it lol and then i noticed dude.....i have a whole week of school this week and then next week i only have 2 days woohoo lol this saturday was 1 week for steph and i she is the best thing that has ever happened to me i love her soooo much...thats all i got to say for now i have a scrimmage on saturday against Central Square...o joy......

peace

hey everyone whats up i am just hanging out right now and listening to my favorite DMB song its call Last Stop



Last Stop
Fire The sun is well asleep
Moon is high above
Fire grows from the east
How is this
Hate so deep
Lead us all so blindly killing killing
Fools we are
If hate's the gate to peace
This is the last stop
For raining tears
War
The only way to Peace
I don't fall for that
Raining tears
You're righteous, so righteous
You're always so right
Go ahead and dream
Go ahead believe that you are the chosen one
Raining tears
Oh no
Gracious even God
Bloodied the cross
Your sins are washed enough
Mother's cry
"Is hate so deep
Must a baby's bones
This hungry fire feed?"
As smoke clouds roll in
The symphony of death
This is the last stop
Scream
Right is wrong now
Shut up you big lie
This black and white lie
You comb your hair to hide
Your lying eyes
You're righteous, so righteous
You're always so right
But why your lie
Go ahead and dream
Go ahead believe that you are the chosen one
This is the last stop
Here there's more than is showing up
Hope that we can break it down
It's not so black and white
You're righteous
You're righteous
You're righteous
You're always so right
There you are nailing a good tree
Then say forgive me, forgive me
Why
Raining tears
This is the last stop
Here there is more than is showing up
Hope that we can break it down
It's not so black and white


i love this song for the people who actually know this song let me know what you think!!

hey guys what up i wanted to let eveyone know that the Whalebirds are now on Myspace so go check em out http://www.myspace.com/thewhalebirds (i hope to be in a couple songs with my favorite cousin...if he wants anyway lol) but the Whalebirds are the shit so check them out and let me know what u think ok

Thanks and Peace

~Than~

i'll tell you what sometimes people can have a fun time and goof around with there friends but honest to god we all need to grow up and not try to be the next peter pan. I love to have a great time but you seriously have to put your priorities first and then have fun not blow away the day and say well.....shit who cares i am not going to do this because man thats going become your attitude for life and then you will become like those people who have a corvette and direct t.v. yet live in a mobile home. Now don't get me wrong i love having a great time ask any of my friend or Pat Mac but i still put what i have to do first ahead of what i want to do because i want to succed in life and not be one of those people fore mentioned idk maybe its just that i am sick and tired off senseless jokes or seeing people wasting there life away because of there dream to be the next peter pan.....i really don't know.....